The thing that held me back in my journey with Christ, without me even realising at first, was a compulsive need, an overwhelming desire to fit transformation and everything that comes with change in one day. Where the pressure to be an over-night perfect-holy-being came from I can’t exactly tell. But it was there. I was completely consumed by a false belief I had convinced myself was true: that Christianity was for the righteous. Only those that could keep their heads above water could wear the name ‘Christian’ with pride. So I strove to be an ideal instead of accepting the proposal of a life transforming relationship. The beauty of this revelatory truth that so eluded me was that the transformation comes as a natural addition. The first liberation was realising that surrendering need not be and would not be in a single day. In fact, every day was another day to lay down something else. There are also times where I needed to lay down something that I thought I had already dealt with.
The greatest journeys aren’t exactly easy. In complete contrast, they test your strengths expose your weaknesses, build your character in the most uncomfortable ways. You loose familiar things of sentimental value to gain great assets. The fact is, great journeys, the Christian journey, takes you through a process that demands one hundred percent disclosure and full acceptance of grace.
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